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Hello everybody

Well I dont want to call this a rant, but I have some things to get off my chest:

First of I would like to thank all my watchers Thank You all for supporting me

Here it is:

I was looking at other art sites for the past couple of days and I have became really depressed over it

I came across depthCore depthcore.com/ I have been to that site before a couple of times for inspiration. The art there is amazing!!!! Its seems like you have to be a perfect artist before you can join But today, I looked up there and I wanted to go somewhere, ball up and die As I looked at the artwork I became really depressed, and asked my self: Why am I not this good…Why dont I know how to do this? Why dont I know these techniques Do I suck at art that bad

Same for these  sites I love to look at for inspiration: StillontheRun stillontherun.com/ Emeric Trahand aka Takeshi, another favorite artist of mine and Ars Thanea www.arsthanea.com/#/works/i_he… where another favorite of mine Peter Jaworowski I think he works there idk and Pawel Nolbert

As you can see I have alot of influences: stillontherun.com/ and www.arsthanea.com/#/works/i_he… and so on…I guess I want to be great like those guys so bad But I dont know how

Please forgive me my fellow deviants for this rant I have alot on my mind, like where will end up after I graduate college in May, will I become a freelance Graphic Designer? Digital Artist? Will I fail at life and art? What will happen to me? All in all it boils down to this: I want to be able to help my mother out…yeah my father decided to stop taking care of us, and we had to move in with my grandparents(who I truly love). But the fact that I see my mother suffer like this makes me want to try so hard to make it, but I just dont know you guys if Im gonna make it.

You guys have been there for me and I really appreciate it Im happy you can read my rants and and not complain

So I think Im gonna make something for you guys…I dont know yet tho'

Thank You for reading you guys